Remembering HIM...its sweet..

Bismillahirrahmaanirraheem...
Assalamualaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakaatuh..=)
today is a hap..hap..happy day...why? it's just a happy day...
maybe because after the ethics paper tadi, i declare this few hours to be 'my time'..setelah sekian lama tidak meluangkan masa untuk diri..h0hoh0...sound selfish? rasa tak..sbb nak treat myself, we should treat ourselves lepas accomplish somethingkan? and i think i did accomplish something...job well done hanah=)..haha

it felt soo happy to smile, to be happy, satisfied with the state u are, to be satisfied with what u tried, u end up to be redha, tawakkal n 'welcome' any thing...kalau ikut wording yang nabi ajar, bersyukurlah dengan apa yang ada..

it reminds me on the day i presented my final year project the other day...(o yea..i already presented my project, JUST need to finish off the draft)..there comes a time when dada rasa saaaangat sesak..it gets so hard to breath.. i guess i was nervous and cold..(i didnt want to admit it in the 1st place)...okay...i was VERY nervous...what if i forget the important points?...what if a blabbered soo fast that the panels dont understand me? ..what if..what if...

it was still early, but i got so nervous, that i went out of the lab that i was suppose to be presenting and went to see fitdriyah, just to tepis the 'gabra'ness...thank u fitd 4 being there 4 me...so i did a mock presentation in front of her, and she sat there..just layan je ana yang tgh gabra...

.........the point is................

i went back to the lab...i STOPPED..SAT quitely and said...Raihanah, u have done what you could, Ya Allah, this is all that i could do... i leave the rest to you, please help me along the way...

and then ttibe rasa a gush of...peace.. some where ..that i just felt..tenang..waaahhh best sangat time tu...

alhamdulillah...alhamdulillah, i did terbelit juga lidah masa present...huhu..still got that english (yeke?) accent..but my lidah just cant take it..haha..but i got complimanted by the panel...syukur...(complimented for the presentation that is..not the accent...=) )

many things happend to me before and after that...and it all comes down to one conclusion..if u get back to Allah, He will get back to u in NO TIME...unlike humans, which if we keep minta tolong dari mereka, bukan kerana mereka tidak mahu tolong..tapi kadang2 mereka tidak mampu...

so berDoalah pada Allah in every situation..kalau sedih..mintalah pada Dia kesabaran dan kekuatan...kalau tgh gembira, mintalah pada dia rasa syukur dan tidak lupa pada nikmat yang diberi...Just PRAY..its our senjata right? (^_^)

p/s: thank you everyone yang mendoakan ana, all this could not really happen without my friends praying for me... Allah sahaja yang mampu membalasnya..

*feeling sentimental*...haHaAhA

Aku yang semakin tua..a birthday entry..

Assalamualaikum...=)

apa khabar semua.. harap semua2 sihat belaka...jasad dan hati..insyaAllah...well.. i guess im not 21 anymore...
last Friday 19th December..was my 22nd birthday... kami sekeluarga celebrate simple2 je... [malu kalau celebrate besar2an...]


through out the day, i kept thinking... kejap je dah 22 ek.. rasa cam baru je masuk 20..(tanak percaya yang ana da tua..huhu)..bukan apa..terfikir...we celebrate the year that we have been living.. tapi if we know the years that we are left to live.. would we celebrate it the same way?... rasa terngiang2 je mama pernah cakap suatu masa dulu...akan tiba suatu masa, bila rumah cakap selamat tinggal, dan kubur panggil selamat datang...

waktu tu ..hanya amalan yang menjadi teman dan ruang... kalau baik amalan kita.. cantik lah teman kita dalam kubur..kubur kita luas dan cantik ibarat taman2 syurga..jika amalan kita tidak seberapa..na'uzubillahi min zaalik..ya Allah, minta jauhkanlah...


(tazkirah untuk DIRI SENDIRI especially...)..walaubagaimana pun.. alhamdulillah, Allah still gives me the chance to live, perbaiki diri... doakan kita semua dapat gunakan peluang hidup ni dengan sebaiknye...amiiin

bawah nie gambar my birthday cupcake...hidang dengan cornflake cookies, yang salut dgn gula, madu dgn butter...bithday girl buat sendiri sebab teringin nak makan...;P
mama ckp...dah abis raya baru nak buat kuih raya...hihi.. bukan apa.. klau buat untuk raya, gerenti tak dapat hidang untuk org punye.. mesti yang tukang buat kuih n konco2 yang habis kan...=)

thank you mama buatkan kek yang comel nie...jazaka ayah for the 'makan luar' special to celebrate and jazakillah hu khairan tu all, my family..atuk nenek yang jauh..my sepupu's yang nun jauh di mata.. sahabat2 yang sempat me'wish'kan my birthday and mendoakan hanah dunia akhirat..thank u very much for ur thoughts...yang belated pun tq juga...

tak lupa pada sahabat2 yang sanggup luangkan their saturday with me at jusco tmn u (jangan gelak kay...i know..dekat sangat) to get together ramai2...for ME...love u guys...=)o0ps... love u gurls...haha

i guess next time jumpe u all ana, and kite semua dah abis degree kut..harap2 nye begitu lah yea... untuk budak2 uiA...happy back to school.. blajar rajin2... niat kerana Allah... make every second of ur life as an ibadah lillahi...

p/s: walaupun ana dah 22.. tapi tak lama lagi nanti antunna nak naik 23 pulak kan kan kan??
;P