bertuahnya ana..bertuahnya kami..

i met ustazah jamilah yesterday.. i asked her why she wants to see me. she says i want to how my anak2 went through after they left me..
i was like.. how lucky i am to a hidayah-ian..ustazah actually has left the school due to some reasons, i already left the school because.. i finished my studies, but she came.. she asked me about my studies..my tarbiyyah, my usrah.. programs that i went through..n what i needed more for life.. oh my God.. to think ..she is my ustazah in secondary school, but.. im just out words to say how grateful i am..

to adik2 and kakak hidayah.. please.. appreciate our 'mothers and fathers' in hidayah.. they think of us more than we think.. i just realize that..huhu

she gave me a few words, words that go straight to the heart..on how Allah chose not all people untuk diuji, how Allah teaches us through life.. how bertuah we are to be salah satu penggerak dakwah as said in surah as-saf... she says never fail to do the little small good things like..selawat, solat sunnat, every praise that we said silently in our hearts, every single thing yang kite buat.. sangat besar pada pandanganNya.. you will get the benefit.. the calmness of it without you realizing it.. however, if you tinggalkan those things..little by little, akan rasa kehilangan yang teramat sangat..
she also said how sad she is seeing anak2 hidayah yang 'hilang'.. tak ada usrah.. maybe we didnt appriteate it.. bcz it came so easy to us.. tak payah cari.. mmg akan ada ustazah akan susun.. every week mmg akan ada..masuk u akan ada 'ramai' akak2 yang akan kejar.. akak2 dari usrah 'lain' pun ada (teringat time awal2 kmm n UTM dulu).. cz its the first step untuk futur dalam dakwah

those simple words..that i didn't really appreciate it at school.. but when i heard it yesterday.. i said to her..i really need that for now, and i did not realize it..

i hope i can carry on.. WE can carry on.. just do our best.. in every thing... after that, it all up to Him..

Pernah seorang syeikh tarbiyah memberi nasihat, ” كن قويا او لا تكون”….Jadilah orang yang kuat, andai tidak boleh maka tak payah jadi apa-apa.

may His blessings, taufiq and hidayah.. is always upon us..

The last week of the semester

What a week.. it was exhausted...
last weekend i went to kuantan to help with kak hashima's n dr rafiq's project. we stayed in grand continental for one night..it was actually a normal trip.. but it was an all gurls trip.. that was the best...(semua macam tak ingat je yang the next week tu msg2 ada banyak sgt bende kene buat)

hari isnin pulak.. it was my final year project 1 presentation, i was supposed to be the 8th presenter, kene bentang around 12.30 pm (tapi haritu rasa macam sgt2 gabra.. i came to the faculty at 8.30 am in the morning...),as i was going through my slides, around 9.30 am, suddenly my lecturer came to me telling that im second.. just around five minutes before the first presenter finished her's... i was like..whatta??huhu.. only Allah knows how i feel at that time (nak nangis pun ada)... tyme tu kononnye macam nak practice la (last practice before i present..tapi nama project pun tergagap2 nak cakap...) somehow Allah helped me along the way..i believe that everything happen for a reason and my presentation turned out well after all..Alhamdulillah...

on teusday..ada test biomedical signal processing..
the next day i was bz preparing for the next day,
on thursday.. we kene present our results on our medical electronics lab.. a system on how to ensure that the ultrasound used by physicians produces images that is really up to the standards of the American Association of Physicists in Medicine (AAPM)..even thought we didnt succeed to completely construct the system (system tu kene gune LabView untuk construct, baru belajar bende tu dalam seminggu n terus kene guna.. kalau budak science comp terer la kut).. the lecturer seemed to be very pleased..hehe..because we tried our best untuk siapkan.. even thought the best is not enough..huhu..pape pun.. dr yusuf (a medical dr) siap suruh completekan system tu cz dia nak gune kat clinic dia..haha...tengok la.. kalau ada masa...mgkn untuk project bile2..
jumaat pulak.. our klas kene bentang on how to plan and construct a hospital..it was quite fun...kalau nak tahu warna cat yang paling sesuai untuk bilik org gila..tanya i..=)..may be antum tau kut..

however..today.. Iqra' ada agm d dewan senat.. it was okay alhamdulillah..after zuhur.. akhwat 3 kereta konvoi beraya kat jamuan NGO Johor kat dewan taman U n rumah kak Rin..ngantuk tak terkira..dah la tak dapat tdo dalam kereta..(i was the driver..geramnye tengok yanti sleeping soundly at the back)..after maghrb je, terus tumbang...and slept like a log.. anyway...after this kene g umah kak aifa.. ada qiam and a few discussions with the akhwat's....i think tonight i need a good rest before tomorrow.. i had a trip to kluang.. beraya rumah kat rumah klas mate... konvoi reramai dalam 7 kereta and i lead.. siap la... i akan bawak perlahan2 je..hihi..

anyway.. it was a nice week to look back on.. somehow i manage to complete all the task that needed to be completed, spend time with my classmates..adik2.. my adik usrah.. akhwat2 yang kiut miut..sempat cit cat with are kat rusia n fatin kat klate, ex hidayah..djah, abyd, zie,atiq, sebah .. and my family.. i guess next week i kene pentingkan diri sket...
the final is just around the corner and nak ready untuk submit projects and assignments pulak.. i wish u guys sume gud luck in ur study kay..

satu lagi.. blog ni antunna bookmark je la yea.. tak payah my name letak kat ur blog laa (on the left side eh bukan, right side .. yang slalu people list out all their friends).. segan plak kalau org laen baca.. hihi (kalau camtu nape wat ek)..

(^_^) wassalamu 'alaikum

Rumitnya..

Rumitnya nak menjaga hati manusia...
lain yang dikatakan.. lain yang difikirkannya..
lain yang kita fikirkan..lain pula yang difahaminya (memangla.. di mana tahu apa yang kita fikir)
lain yang kita niatkan.. lain pula yang ditafsirkan..

tapi kenapa ya?
aku sering berusaha untuk menjaga hati makhluk lain yang bernama manusia.. sedangkan hati 'manusia-ini-sendiri' pun aku tak terjaga...
kadang2 come to a point yang..hmm biarlah apa yang mereka fikirkan..
Allah tahu niatku yang sebenar..
Allah tahu kekuatan dan kemampuan ku ..
Allah faham kesukaran dan ke'limitation'ku..

yes.. it all went back to him..
Penciptaku..who creates me..
yang tidak akan membebankanku melampaui kemampuanku...
yang memahami segala isi hati ...
menerimaku dengan segala kelemahan yang hanya Dia tahu...
yang melihat setiap butir amalan baik..
it all went back to.. tujuan sebenar hidup ku..

yeah..I know.. but sometimes I need to be remembered.. always

4th Year convoi Raya

Yesterday, we.. me n my coursemates went 'konvoi'ing together to few selected houses.
it was quite like a tradition to convoi ramai2 to rumah2 org jb (me, salleh, wani n nazrey).. and lecturers that allow us to come..haha..it started since in the first year..

the thing i like the most is.. there always someone who is responsible for the trip...someone who is going to make it happen.. this year's was really a memorable one.. 1st because this is our final year and next year.. sape laa yang akan tinggal lagi kat skudai ni (erm..me).. 2nd.. because Chan Teck Keng joined us.. at last..we had a chinese friend to go with us..and

3rd..something out of the ordinary happend.. ada accident (between two of the my classmates cz brek tk makan.. tym tu tgh hujan lebat sgt..) yes, it is very shocking, but pike2 balik macam terharu sgt cz after the accident.. everybody keluar from their kereta.. yang ada payung ke takde.. pakai high heel ke jubah ke=)..semua dah tak kesah dah..yang dah jauh kat depan patah balik tu help, sampai lencoi baju raya, kebaya, selendang masing2 ....

hmm, masa xcident to happen, mmg both cars tu in front of us..terus teringat pesanan my mum before i went, she said.. hanah baca doa eh before driving.. ayat kursi sekali.. promise me! alhamdulilllah both car can still move (we went to THREE more houses after that).. n takde fatal tapi it is a very good peringatan for me yang walau pun baca doa every time nk drive.. tpi i tend to take for granted kalau dapat sampai tempat tu dgn selamat n tak ada jam=)...

yeah..raya2 juga.. tapi malam tu me n my friends manage to finish our biomedical signal processing project ..yei(walaupon mula2 tu macam semua blank tak tahu nk gne matlab cz mood raya tak abish lagi.. hihi) ..
alhamdulillah..

Assalamualaikum...=)

Assalamualaikum semua... alhamdulillah, at last.. after a few long ..years maybe.. i finally started a blog of my own. its not that i dont like to write, but its how i finally manage to have the courage for me to let people to read what i wrote.. wierd?? i dont think so..

anyway... i think its because a 'few' of my friends and 'sepupu's kept persuading me to buat one..untuk korg update sume..and i think why not start now.. while you have the courage.. betta late that neva..

somehow i hope, it helps me to share things that i am unable to speak out, remind those who sometimes forgot, and menyahut seruan 'sampaikanlah daripadaku walau satu aayah'

to all my friends..and sepupu's...this is for u guys ^_-